Good Friday is very special because it was there, in Priego City, that the Lord threw me off the horse for the first time (I say for the first time because in my sovereign idiocy, I got back on the horse and the Lord had to repeat the whole "throwing me off the horse" thing many times).
We just finished the Holy Week Encounter and it has been a grace for all of us.
For me, as you know, Good Friday is very special because it was there, in Priego City, that the Lord threw me off the horse for the first time (I say for the first time because in my sovereign idiocy, I got back on the horse and the Lord had to repeat the whole "throwing me off the horse" thing many times). [...]
Prayer and meditation was hard for me. One thing that helps me was something Cantalamessa said: "When we find ourselves in a situation of chronic distractions, which it is no longer up to us to control, let our thoughts go where they will, but may our body remain in prayer. And if you cannot do otherwise, put your poor brother body on its knees and raising your eyes to heaven say to God, 'Lord, my body prays to you.'" Then I try to stay on my knees as long as possible so that the Lord and Our Lady may see that I do not want to abandon them. I also read this quote that I loved, "When the heart is dead and we no longer have the slightest prayer or supplication, hopefully when the Lord comes, He finds us prostrate face to the ground forever" (St. Isaac the Syrian).
Let’s see....Good Friday... We had time for prayer in front of the monument in the morning. It was very important for me to accompany the Lord. I imagined that He was still in prison, so I went there to see Him and to place myself in His presence. I presented to Him my cold soul and my hard heart and I told Him that sometimes I think that my faults and my sins are bigger and stronger than me. Sometimes I want to give up and give in to the temptation that I cannot fight anymore. The Lord listened to me attentively and at the end He said to me, "Are your sins and all the bad things you have greater than Me? You have all my blood, I have given everything for you." I experienced afterwards that I had to renounce Satan (what we do at the Easter Vigil). I thought, "I don't know it by heart," but providentially I had in my notebook a sheet we used a few days before for the radio that had all the renunciations on it. I saw that it was totally from God. With all my soul, I asked the Lord to cover my whole mind, will and heart with His blood so that He might always be my center and my end.