Carolina Aveiga. Ecuador: It really hurt Sr. Clare when someone did not do God’s will, because she loved the Lord and every soul, too.
One time we visited a Carmelite convent because a Carmelite, who had been a member of the Home of the Mother Youth, was going to make her perpetual vows. Sr. Clare and I were talking, and at the time I was about to graduate from high school. Sr. Clare asked me if I knew what I was going to study, and I told her my plan: “I’m going to study social communications and take classes at such and such a place.” Smiling yet worried, she looked at me and said, “Great! You’re really sure. Just one question: does the Lord want that?” I already knew that that wasn’t what the Lord wanted. I answered her saying that I didn’t care that the Lord did not want it, I wanted it and that was all I cared about.
I cannot describe Sr. Clare’s face after I said that. All I can say is that in that moment I felt like Jesus was looking at me like He looked at Judas, who had betrayed Him. I was immediately sorry, but Sr. Clare had walked away before I could tell her.
When I saw her again she said that she hoped what I had said was a joke because it really offended the Lord and I would end up unhappy. In this example, you can see Sr. Clare’s union with the Lord. It really hurt her when someone did not do God’s will, because she loved the Lord and every soul, too.