The devil is very angry with me and attacks me much more than before regarding boys, the world... But I trust in God and know that I won't fall if They (Our Lord and Our Blessed Mother) keep helping me.
I am doing very well. I am very happy to be what my soul longed to be. Of course I have a lot of struggles! The devil is very angry with me and attacks me much more than before regarding boys, the world... But I trust in God and know that I won't fall if They (Our Lord and Our Blessed Mother) keep helping me.
I'm not going to deny that at the beginning of my aspirancy (now, too, but less than before, because now I trust more) I was very afraid I would quit and forget about it, but I am trying to be holier each day. Even though it's difficult, it really helps me to think that I am an aspirant, so I cannot be sad. The formation talks shed light on things... Pray for me so that I open up to my spiritual guide so she can help me be better.
Pray that God will give me light to know myself and to know Him, so I may never take my eyes off of Him, even though my soul may be in darkness. These are the moments when I thank God the most. I don't like to experience this, because I feel like running out of the chapel when I pray, although I've never done it. But if God wants my soul to be like this now, I accept it for love of Him and for love of souls.
Pray for me, and thank you very much for everything. We hope to see you soon.
May God and Our Blessed Mother bless you always,